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Wednesday 13 May 2009

to waver


seven days
seven days
of nothing much
and now you start
your evil drilling
snaking sneaky
through my panic stricken
mind
for what, for why, i cry
how many bars of chocolate
must i eat
to still your iniquitous
insistence
yesterday was strength
no problem
i had the beating
of you
today, day seven
you whisper sweet, sweet nothings
turn my head
from sensible to needy
i know where you lie
waiting for me
tonight i crave sleep
to shut your ceaseless nagging
from my mind
which longs for an excuse
to waver and draw deep
the curling trails
of nicotine's addiction


Copyright © 2009 by Eryll Oellermann

4 comments:

m.m.sugar said...

LMAO-you smoked for 45 years! what did you expect? but-you can do it!
seven is a good beginning!

reeflightning said...

aaarrrggghhh! methinks todays nicotine patch must be defective. such a desire to pull long and hard, breath in so deep and feel the bite against my throat, my lungs overflowing with the smoke i crave ...
sigh ...

reeflightning said...

i am a friggin' addict!

Anonymous said...

i have no advice for you, unfortunately..i had quit for 4 weeks, and picked it right back up with a vengeance. lol

does chewing gum help you at all? or sucking on a straw? something to keep your brain somewhat distracted??

hang in there!