phelan moonshadow - chapter 4

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Chapter 4

so … I was born straight or so it might appear, female, blonde with really big blue eyes. Funny thing that, how your eyes seem to become smaller with age whilst your ears seem to keep right on growing! Somehow the blonde turned a shade of indiscriminate brown as I grew up. No matter, age has it's compensations and I am now the owner of an almost completely silver head of hair.

The boy was always with me in my preferences and I was fortunate enough to be born into a family who, sure and confident in their own gender rolls, felt no need to harass me in regard to my distinct lack of femininity.

I had no trouble at all when it came to finding boys and later, men... attractive. Perhaps I was born bi-sexual, with an ability to find either sex attractive, but, the way of my world was to find a man, marry your love and make babies. As a youngster growing up and during the long, happy years of my marriage, the possibility of loving a woman never even entered my head.

I must have been widowed for about two years. I was still deep in the misery of my loss and I was lonely. I moved from my family home to marry my man and live with him. I had never lived alone and here I was, alone, fifty six years old, children all grown with lives of their own. The silence rang in my ears until it deafened me!

By now I had realized that my man was special, a one in a million fellow. I would never take another man as either lover or husband.

I have no idea quite how I came to the decision that pursuing a relationship with a woman might be the way to go.

Never the less, I did.

I joined an internet dating site, my profile stated that I was a woman seeking a relationship with a woman. Life was about to become interesting.

At about the same time, I decided to study the art of healing through reflexology. I found a college which offered a course over a year. I had lost my old life when I lost my love, I was determined to find a new path into the future.

Little did I know that the wolf was stirring, the boy awakening, Phelan Moonshadow was soon to be born.